im always lookin for sumthing that never exsist....like this is my wish n i only pray it comes true............i wish i can find sum1 that can bring out the real me n still love me no matter how i act..no matter how crazy or insane or even if they dont like it they will still love me...just sum1 of the oppostie sex to hold me sum1 i can tell my secrets too, sum1 thatx will bring out w/ reall me in public n i wont b ashamed to show it! not a b/f g/f thing or a best friends w/ benefits but close....like the b/f g/f thing but more relaxed WAY more relaxed!!! u could lick thier face n they wont care or they'd give u a rassberry on ur tummy to make u giggle or as kisses(even if that) give eskmo ones instead! sum1 to cry on to hold n love sum1 thatx awlays there no matter what! i want sum1 there that is sorda rocker..like me....sooo disfuntional it just fits so strange n akward it just works.....for one another to say they love u like...fried chicken ..little special nickname they can only use...but nasty ones like cupcake*gags* shit like that...NASTY!!!!!!!! just names like "mags" only names u n him would no what they mean n no one else!!! something so strange it just works....not asking to get married just sum1 ur really close to but so so so much more.hard to explain idk i doubt this exsists owell

-me

Currently Listening Yeah Yeah Yeahs By Yeah Yeah Yeahs see related

- Maps

have u ever thought uve meet the right one and u thought this was it but in the back of ur mind u were scared to death...ive bin there and im eXtremely close to being over him 4ever! yes i am anccoing on here i love andrew w. from Grove City Ohio and now is in South Carolina but i love him i have for a long time! i love him as my best friend n brother mayb more...idk....but therex no one like him and he alwayX knows how to put a smile on any oneX face! I love another like this but w/o the more part r.g.c. is my best bro. in ohio i trust him w/ my life n love him 2 death! i love my sisters as well amy,kristen,katie, n terri! as much as i love these guyX! i belong to them not a relationship guy...and im happy w/ just that!....for now at least...i need to tie up a few losse endX if ya no what i mean

-a thought from the lonely 

p.s.  people my peopleX please help me this summer to shock the pantX off of ppl when i go back 2 skool.....i want abs!!!!! and a new/old look..hell im thinking about wearing pink! i no but please try to help me..i wanna stay punk but me as well

Currently Playing God Must Have Spent A Little More Time On You [MAXI SINGLE] [ENHANCED CD] By 'N Sync see related

- sorry about the type of music it sthe only thing i cant think of

aim~may i got a poem just 4 u n others that know this feeling or have a b/f sooooooooo here it goes..............I LOVE U ALLL!!!!!!!!!!!! c therex the poem HAHA not here it is truly this is it..............but this is how i felt/feel still about that sum1 so like i said itx deicated to those who have lovers n a BIG ass crushes

                                           "You Don't Know" 1/21/05

I live my life jugular 

as do you

We fit like a glove

you and I

What you don't know is

when i'm around you

I'm on cloud nine

I'm just fine

when i'm around you

What you don't know is

when u put your arms around me

my knees get weak

What you dont know is

you put the pur

in perrrrrrfect

What you don't know is

your lips, your kiss

is pure bliss

What you don't know is

I'll never tell you this

not now at least

some day but now all I can say

is......"I love you"

ThE eNd

there u poeplex go so leave ur thoughtx

Currently Playing Try This [Limited Edition w/ Bonus DVD] By Pink see related

- Love Song

hey my peoplex it about time to update again since i havent done it in a LONG time lol.........well my peoplex herex a new 1 just written friday

                                                           "Time" written:12/10/04

Dayx grow older

nightx grow colder

every second we grow older

and the more i want u here here w/ me

People say do thingx this way

but I tend to disagree

I was scared

in the night

there was nothing but fright

then there was u

you made the light

I tired it too

For you it was

just to say

'I love you'

those sweet sounding wordx

is the greatest gift

you'll ever give me

so then I said it too.

herex a new 1 yall enjoy!

"Different Worldx" written 2day

Everyone had thier ups and downs

or all arounds

but me, I'm different

You grounded my feet

made me see

who I really could be

As people were in the air

We're on the grounded

apinning all around

because we don't care

The past tired to tell me what I should'nt do

but the didnt know I wont' listen to you

But you grounded my feet

made me see

who I really could be

U made me mad,sad, and everything else

but the one thing u make me is happy,when i see u all i do is smile

i love u more than nething as we are

u do do it too

and i <3 u, as we are

You grounded my feet

and made me see

who I really could be